Happy New Year 2019

Happy New Year! I’m already excited about this new year and what God has in store for us.

I just got back from my nephrologist visit. We go every year since 2012 when I was dx with an autoimmune in my kidneys. In 2012 I had a stage 4 kidney failure and my creatinine was at a 4! I had hematuria, proteinuria, HTN, and edema. My kidneys were rapidly declining and the doctor was talking about possibly putting me on a dialysis and enlisting me on a kidney transplant. Because my kidneys were plummeting, I was given chemotherapy to wipe out my system to slow or stop the decline. And it did work to some extent, however, my doctor said that my kidneys may function only at a certain percentage and that I may still exhibit sxs for the rest of my life. Also I had a blood transfusion and had some blood clots as a result from that. I was on many meds and as I could recall it was about 22 different meds. I remember counting each one and telling Jason that I don’t think that I can swallow all these meds.
I had many doctor visits nearly each week for months and months. I also had chemotherapy for months too. Jason took me to all my doctor visits. And that’s why he is such a good husband!

Every month I started to get better and had less sxs. I wasn’t on nearly as many meds, and I was told that there were a few meds that I may have to take for the rest of my life. My doctor’s visits were cut to 3 months, 6 months and 1 year. Things were improving, but every year at my nephrologist visit, I would still show a small amount of blood in my urine. My doctor said that it may never healed despite my creatinine was at a normal range.

Today I went in for my annual renal visit and I did my urine test, everything checked out perfect! My doctor said that there was no blood in my urine. And all of my blood work came back normal with creatinine at a 0.66, BUN 9, no blood, glucose, and protein in my urine, no sxs of kidney failure. My doctor took me off my LAST meds and he said, “no more visits, you’re a free bird now”, and that made me feel quite sentimental. It has been a long journey of 6 years to finally feeling normal again and no longer having to take any meds! Clearly, I’m sharing this because I serve an Awesome God and He did not forget and abandon me during those most difficult times of my life. He’s taught me so much during those tough times that all I want is more of Him and less of me.

The greatest love of all is the love that God has for us by his son on the cross. So my encouragement to all is that whatever situation in life that you are going through, know that God loves you and He will never abandon you! Hold on to the faith, pray, and read your bible! I hope my testimony will bless and encourage your walk in the Lord, no matter what life throws at you.

Happy New Year and God bless!




hope for a baby


My precious nephew was born 7lbs 3oz on 10/18/17. He shares the same birthday as Jason’s older brother, Ben. All he loves to do is eat, sleep, cry and poop.

I wonder sometimes what it would be like to have a baby too. Jason and I want to have one, but it’s not easy. I don’t know if I’m still fertile and my eggs are okay after having undergone several chemo treatments 4 years ago. My menstrual cycle is regular and normal. Still, it doesn’t mean anything. My doctor says that he used the low dose of chemo and it shouldn’t affect me much and that I’m still young.

On the other hand, Jason had a vasectomy in his mid 20s when he decided that he didn’t want to have any children. I must admit, I got on him about his past several times and tried to understand his logic. He says that his mother had mental health problems, and he didn’t want to inherit to his children. He also states that he may have had some psychological problems at the time and made a hasty decision. This was all before his faith wasn’t as strong as today.

So this takes us to where we are now. Last year, Jason had a RV and it failed. This year, he had it done again, and it worked. It’s just a matter of God’s timing now. What gives me hope is knowing many people in the bible struggled with infertility and overcame it through God. There are still some unknown factors that we haven’t sorted it out yet, but for now, we continue to pray that this is God’s will for us too.


deactivate FB

I deactivated my FB today. I wanted to do it a long time ago, but I never managed to go through it.

Today I did it. I just feel FB changes my mood and the things that people post are not relevant and not always positive or encouraging. I wanted to use my FB to draw people to Christ, to encourage and inspire, and to share my fishing photos. But it seemed like negative draws more attention. So here I am back to blogging. It feels good to write regardless who reads it or not, and a place where I can write about my faith, my life, and my love for fishing.