hope for a baby


My precious nephew was born 7lbs 3oz on 10/18/17. He shares the same birthday as Jason’s older brother, Ben. All he loves to do is eat, sleep, cry and poop.

I wonder sometimes what it would be like to have a baby too. Jason and I want to have one, but it’s not easy. I don’t know if I’m still fertile and my eggs are okay after having undergone several chemo treatments 4 years ago. My menstrual cycle is regular and normal. Still, it doesn’t mean anything. My doctor says that he used the low dose of chemo and it shouldn’t affect me much and that I’m still young.

On the other hand, Jason had a vasectomy in his mid 20s when he decided that he didn’t want to have any children. I must admit, I got on him about his past several times and tried to understand his logic. He says that his mother had mental health problems, and he didn’t want to inherit to his children. He also states that he may have had some psychological problems at the time and made a hasty decision. This was all before his faith wasn’t as strong as today.

So this takes us to where we are now. Last year, Jason had a RV and it failed. This year, he had it done again, and it worked. It’s just a matter of God’s timing now. What gives me hope is knowing many people in the bible struggled with infertility and overcame it through God. There are still some unknown factors that we haven’t sorted it out yet, but for now, we continue to pray that this is God’s will for us too.



random updates:

I’m back! I haven’t been writing in here for a while. There have been many good things happened these past months. We thank God for all the blessings.

Jason had an undisclosed surgery done again in May. Thanks God that he did well and recovered from it and that it worked.

We’re still fishing and catching bass.

We had a baby shower for my brother and sister-in-law in August. They’re due in October, next week! Very exciting!

God blessed us with a brand new truck in September! We did not expect it. Now we have a reliable and durable vehicle to explore more fishing lakes in NC.

We had a leak in our garage roof for a year and managed to temporarily patch it for a while. Instead of hiring someone to do it, we took upon ourselves to fix the front and back roof with the volunteering to help from my brother, sister-in-law, and our neighbor Brad, who knows about roofing. Thanks God this big project is done!

We recently sponsored a child through Compassion International in September, a girl from Ethiopia. Hoping that we can do much more.

Other than that, work is going well and still doing PRN at the same place. My health is good and so is Jason’s. Thanks be to God.